Is feeling nothing better than feeling bad? At least when you are feeling down you feel like you have something to conquer. Something to push back against. Today just feels “meh”. I’ve already been more productive than the last 4 days combined. That is a positive. I keep hoping for this magical Fast Pass toContinue reading “Blank”
Monthly Archives: October 2021
First Day of Intensive Group Therapy
I learned that every negative leaning thought I have ever had has a name. Woof. I have been putting all of these things to full use this past month. Not taking a single break – Sunrise to Sunset. I have always been an overachiever. Getting a “Name to a Face” so to speak did helpContinue reading “First Day of Intensive Group Therapy”
Getting help hurts
This is one of only two times total that I have ever chosen willingly to pursue Therapy. ~4ish years ago now I got very sick. My heart was swelling, my lungs were not working properly, my brain seemed to be swelling and my limbs would go numb and lose feeling. The doctors never were ableContinue reading “Getting help hurts”
Difficult thoughts – Just the beginning
Omission vs. Lying I used to consider myself a pretty honest person but, I have actually struggled these past few weeks with that notion. I have NEVER willfully lied to someone. What I do/did may actually be worse though. The Oxford Dictionary defines Omission as: a person or thing that has been left out orContinue reading “Difficult thoughts – Just the beginning”
Not every day is gonna be great…
I’ve only been awake for 2 hours but this .gif actively represents the state of my mind today. Literally zero stimulus and can wake up feeling this overwhelmed, this triggered, disconnected. If you or anyone else has ever said that they have had literally nothing happen that day but have felt totally garbage, been spacedContinue reading “Not every day is gonna be great…”
Direction
One of the biggest emotions I have felt recently has been a lack of direction. Lost. Don’t know where to start and DEFINITELY don’t know where I will end. It’s tough. Very tough. What I have been doing was extremely unhealthy but it felt like I had purpose, like there was something I was workingContinue reading “Direction”
The first steps are the hardest
I have never thought of myself as someone who had Trauma™. If I go back far enough having been forced in, around, and through therapy as a kid – I had disdain for Mental Illness as a whole – it wasn’t as real as they say it is. While at the time I think IContinue reading “The first steps are the hardest”
If you are going to be anxious anyway... 