After having been denied the opportunity to express myself in any sort of coherent way (belittled, called names, straight up ignored, insisting that what I was saying was entirely unimportant) for years and years. I am left with this insatiable desire to explain my actions. Even the smallest things: “you look good in that shirt! So fancy!” , “Sorry I didn’t have anything more casual to wear, laundry day”. This has happened – recently.
I need someone else to hear the reasoning of why I have done/said/acted in a certain way because I need to make sure that I have a second opinion that I am acting in a way that was “correct”. I can’t produce the notion that what I am feeling is valid in any way.
If you are going to be anxious anyway... 