I have been constantly surrounded by people for the better part of the last decade. 95% of the time it was at work though. People at work – those exchanges are frequently entirely transactional. Especially when you are in charge. Working as a Chef there are very few people that you can turn to. EveryoneContinue reading “Loneliness”
Tag Archives: Lost
Who am I?
Going through all this and purposefully taking action on myself and my mental health has left me with a lot of questions. The one that sticks out the most, the most aggravating, is I do not really know who I am… Not even in the philosophical sense, my identity as a core concept is gone,Continue reading “Who am I?”
Day 2 – What goes on inside
If you have never been – just like me, this is what an intense group therapy curriculum can look like. 75% of the stuff I have never even heard of before. I like to learn new things, so that is cool. I do have a tendency to be the kid in the back that doesContinue reading “Day 2 – What goes on inside”
Mistakes
I had taken myself off of my Anxiety meds. I think I was in a false sense of security. That I had overcome or “beaten” the need to have them. While I don’t think this is the cause of my breakdown – it did not help. My resiliency was at an all time low andContinue reading “Mistakes”
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Is feeling nothing better than feeling bad? At least when you are feeling down you feel like you have something to conquer. Something to push back against. Today just feels “meh”. I’ve already been more productive than the last 4 days combined. That is a positive. I keep hoping for this magical Fast Pass toContinue reading “Blank”
Difficult thoughts – Just the beginning
Omission vs. Lying I used to consider myself a pretty honest person but, I have actually struggled these past few weeks with that notion. I have NEVER willfully lied to someone. What I do/did may actually be worse though. The Oxford Dictionary defines Omission as: a person or thing that has been left out orContinue reading “Difficult thoughts – Just the beginning”
Direction
One of the biggest emotions I have felt recently has been a lack of direction. Lost. Don’t know where to start and DEFINITELY don’t know where I will end. It’s tough. Very tough. What I have been doing was extremely unhealthy but it felt like I had purpose, like there was something I was workingContinue reading “Direction”
If you are going to be anxious anyway... 